I love Fall. It's my second favourite season behind Winter. And while it's crisp morning air, and dazzling colours appeal to me, I would appreciate a lot more if it weren't for school.
School. Ah, yes. Responsible for 99.7% of my daily stress, school and I have an odd relationship. On hand I love learning. And learning in a structured environment is something I enjoy. What I don't enjoy are:
- Tests
- Teachers who don't care
- My classmates (some of them are nice)
- The pointless rules
- All the busy work
I know my not liking school is a typical syndrome of teenage angst, teachers work very hard, my classmates probably feel the same way about me, most of rules are of value, and that I'm privileged to even be able to go to school. I am very aware that I'm fortunate to be able to school, and I'm grateful for it. But ever since middle school, my excitement of coming to school everyday gradually morphed into dread. Tests, exams, and quizzes give me so much stress, it's pathetic. I do the homework, pay attention, ask questions, but I always find myself making little mistakes. And getting back a bad grade really upsets me. This partially due to the fact that I usually get excellent grades, so when I get marks that aren't up to par, I feel like a failure. I guess measuring my worth in my grades isn't healthy, but it's something I always do.Sigh.
This feels more like a diary post/rant than blog post, but I'm beyond caring.
Bye non-existent readers of this blog!
-Jasmine
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